A look back on 2015

Ah, another year over. You know, I'm not usually the kind of person who sits and reminisces about the year like a lot of people do. To be quite honest, I don't remember much of this year. It's all jumbled up in my head. But I'll try to unscramble the thoughts to hopefully make a coherent point for your sake.
Let's see. The beginning. What do I remember? Shit. I don't remember anything. It seems so... bleak. I remember working at Walmart. I spent New Year's eve with my best friend and second mom, Bernise. We drank fancy vodka and talked all night. It was wonderful. I ate some ham and bread and it was delicious as her food never ever disappoints. I remember having some food with my family. What did we eat? Maybe mole? I do remember taking a pic with them and then having to go work at Walmart.
In February, I quit Walmart. It was a bittersweet ending because although I needed a break like we need oxygen, I was still sad about leaving because of all the cool people I had met. Looking back now, this time around it was much better, but still. 
It snowed quite a bit this past year. Lots and lots of ice and snow. It was nice.
March was the first month since May 2014 I had a day off. It was nice. My mom had a birthday. March was the last time I heard Ryan's voice on Skype. 
In April I stopped talking to Ryan. We had been friends for almost three years, and we mutually decided it needed to end. 
In May my dad got sick and was in the hospital 2 hours away for almost a month- my mom with him. I spent those weeks home alone trying to be a responsible person. It was tough! I had to take out the trash and wash dishes and cook food for myself!! It was so hard. My niece stayed with me a few days to keep me company, but even then it was like, not the same. My brother works nights so I was home alone during the nights and during the days I'd visit my parents. It was tough. 
Youssef helped me a lot during this time. I met him in the middle of May and it was marvelous. He is one of my best friends in the whole world now. He is brilliant and caring and unlike anyone I've ever met.
In June, I started to not feel so well. It was then that it hit me that I was depressed. Most of this month was spent moping around the house- sleeping on and off. I knew I had to do something yet it seemed impossible to move.
In July, I returned to my job at walmart. Training and more training and I was back. It helped.
In August, I got majorly overwhelmed by 2 jobs again. I promised myself I wouldn't do it again for as long as I lived, but yet now it was my lifeline to distract me from the horrible depression I had sunk in. It was strange, going back yet not hard at all.
In September I finally got help for my depression after deciding it wasn't just about me, it was about everyone around me and this was MY LIFE I was dealing with. I got on 20mg of Prozac. In early October, I started psychotherapy. I was then switched to 40mg and it was like a switch. I was still sad on some days, but on most days I managed to get out of bed and to LIVE. It was something I needed and I don't care if you don't believe in medicine, I truly feel like I would have done something tragic had I not gotten on an antidepressant.
In September Erika and I got to see Taylor Swift in concert! It was beyond amazing.
In late October, I turned 21! Finally legal to drink! I had a neat, small birthday party with huge balloons and candy and flan and Uno.
November was crazy! The 2 jobs thing is still hard. Not as hard as it used to, but still pretty tough especially around the holidays. 98% of the month of December I spent inside Walmart.

Now, looking back it seems like such a short time. But 365 days don't lie. It was a tough year, but it was also a year full of learning and full of new experiences. I wouldn't change a thing.

Now for the next year?
I'd like to read more. I've given that up for awhile now.
I'd like to try college. Maybe in the fall now.
I'd like to get back to learning Dutch and finish Rosetta Stone by the end of 2016.
I'd like to do more charity and helping, maybe involve myself with the Family Resource Center more. Helping feels so awesome.
I'd like to blog more- at least once a month.
I'd like to be a better friend, sister, daughter, sister-in-christ, aunt, member of church, woman.
I'd like to spend more time with my oldest niece and nephew. I'll try to take her out at least once a few months.
I'd like to quit working 2 jobs at least by the middle of the year.
I'd like to become financially stable and start building an emergency fund.
I'd like to watch my health more- both mental and physical. Be more active, drink less Coke, and try to get my blood pressure under control.
I'd like to continue therapy and keep working on myself.
These are some of my goals :)

2016, here I come!